YOU

Can do This

Yes, YOU

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Scared of the dark

Darkness cannot survive in the Light.

I agree based on my past. I lived in the Dark.

I embraced the Dark..because it suited me once upon a time.

I couldn’t deal with life and was consumed by the Darkness.

It became me.

That person doesn’t exist today. I choose to live in the light. Do i miss the darkness ?

My ‘addictive’ mind screams yes and tries to romanticize those days but how can you justify the emptiness? Loneliness? Sadness? Depression? Anger? Not sleeping or eating for days?

The crimes I committed against myself during my ‘dark days?’ Romanticize that?!?

I do miss some of the people I met out there and I hope one day they will see the light before it’s too late. But I can miss them from a distance.

My Recovery must come first today so that everything I love doesn’t get lost in the shuffle of life.

My food and alcohol addiction is always out there, waiting, plotting, trying to get me back.

Not today Darkness my old ‘friend’, today I choose to live in the Light and be happy, joyous and free. 😇🙏🏼❤️

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Now 9 months..

All my life, I’ve hated this woman.

I’ve not loved her at full capacity. I’ve fed her lies & told her she wasn’t good enough and have allowed others to tell her she wasn’t good enough.

I’ve allowed her to be broken. I’ve allowed others to treat her disrespectfully. I’ve allowed her to run through brick walls & battle for others who won’t even stand for her.

I couldn’t stop individuals from hurting her, from family members to so called friends and yet I’ve seen her still get up to be a light to the world & love others despite all. I have stood paralyzed by fear while she fought battles in her mind, heart and soul!

Forgive me for not going to war for you like you do for others.

This QUEEN is a WARRIOR. She’s not perfect but she is WORTHY!

She’s UNSTOPPABLE.

Gracefully broken but beautifully standing. She is loved. She is life. She is transforming. She is BRAVE!

She looks fear in the face and says bring it…

I Am She.

I am 9 months sober.

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Sunday thought

Something for me and you to think about today.

If only I could see myself as a means of help. If only I could understand it only takes a moment. If only I understood what difference I can make. If only I could see what the future holds for them.

Take a moment today.

Be there for someone in a meeting struggling or at their wits end.

Take a moment and be that light. Someone was for me once!

Don’t forget to be there for yourself also ❤

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Battle continues..

Life is a fight. From the day you’re born you come out crying and screaming.

I’ve had many fights in my life. None of which I’m ashamed of. They serve as the foundation to this indestructible mindset.

I didn’t have parents that were there for me in times of severe need. No family that valued togetherness

I battled with severe depression. Food and alcohol use to escape my reality.

No college degree, not really skilled in anything, getting nowhere. Never seeming to ever be able to get ahead. Hopeless and afraid.

I’ve experienced feelings and emotions I wouldn’t wish on my worst enemy.

Sometimes It’s hard for me to even make sense how I got out of my own life alive to be where I am. Well and free.

I experienced an epiphany, an awakening that set me free.

The biggest fight you’ll ever fight isn’t your family, your personal or intimate relationships, your depression or substance abuse, your job or your career, or your finances.

The biggest fight you’ll ever fight is between your own two ears. If you can fix it in your head, you can be well and free.

YOUR MIND IS THE BATTLEGROUND.

Stay strong. Stay focused.

YOU can do it.

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Friday, let’s get real…

♡ I can honestly say that giving as well as demanding respect is so important.

Even though you may be new to recovery or dieting or a new nindset, this doesn’t mean you have to put up with others disrespecting you.

Ive been through quite a lot very recently and allowing others to overlook my feelings, and That alone has almost did me in mentally!

It only proves that even though things are better in everyday and we are still going to deal with everyday problems, some worse than others, some better!

Let your positive thoughts do the driving all the time because being a passenger is far better than allowing yourself to cause a head on collision! My way has not always turned out so well.

Remember to never take anything for granted and to be humble, kind, truthful, non judgemental and respectful toward all and expect it back ten fold

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Live.. love

I’m not here to tell you that life gets easier when you get ‘clean,’ but it does get better in more ways than you ever imagined.

I’m not here to tell you that getting sober gets you back everything you lost, but you get what you need to be happy and free.

I’m not here to tell you that society is going to welcome you back with open arms, but you do get back those people that you need right now.

Life is life, it’s filled with ups and downs, if we continue to let our past control our future then we forfeit a chance at living the life we really want.

A life worth living.

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