Sunday confession, I gained…

And how are you, and how are things? Well things are going pretty good here in the great state of North Carolina. It stopped raining and the sun is out. And it’s supposed to be nearly 70 degrees today. So hey the sun is shining. I also hope that is shining on you wherever you are and if you ever read this.

Well it’s been 2 months and 22 days since I’ve came out of retirement and tried to get my shit together.

Whatever I have done is working. I am not snacking, I am not eating fast food day in and day out, I’m making healthy conscious choices and using portion control. And that FYI portion control could just mean one serving if you don’t want to measure anything out. Keep it simple as Judge Judy would say. And I would also say do what works for you.

In 8 days I’ve been sober and clean for three months / 90 days. That means more to me than anything at this point, at this junction. I had to get myself together mentally before I can do anything physically. Does that make sense?

Somebody said have you lost any weight? Why yes I have. I have dropped it and entire pant size and about 20 pounds so I’m thankful and grateful for that.

But it’s not what I’ve lost that means everything to me right now, it is what I have gained.

I have gained a sober mentality. I no longer wake up with a hangover headache and feeling like I’m going to throw up because I drink too much the night before. And to me drinking too much was pretty near two bottles of wine every night. Today as I write this, it has been two months 22 days since I am sober and to me that is everything. Because my sobriety affects everything in my life and everyone in my life.

And I got a new job since I got out of retirement. I’ve got a job that is 3.2 miles from my house and it is in a field that I’ve always wanted to work in, the medical field. And you know what I’m doing fantastic at this job. I’m really doing well. The only downside is the walking that I have to do but I’m thinking positive about it and no one that would every step, I’m getting better physically. I have good and bad days with my knees and if they’re bad days, I do what I can.

So things are good. I wish I could say they were great but is anybody’s life great? And that could even before me and air are they ever really truly happy? I think for the most part I am happy. I am happy with the changes that I have made and the decisions that I have made in the last 2 months

I’m keeping my circle small. I don’t do drama, I won’t allow that around me anymore. I am always going to be happy I am not going to allow anybody to see me miserable sad upset. Who wants to be around anybody like that? I do not so I am not allowing that to happen either at work or at home. If somebody upsets me oh, I will suck it in and let it go inhale and exhale that bull s**t right out the door.

So that’s why Sunday confessional. I gained but I’m happy about it.

Thank you so much for reading this if you do. As always please comment down below if you want. And just know that you are not alone in whatever you’re doing. Whatever Journey you’re on. Because it may not be the same as mine, but it all is the same way.

About Banded Carolina Girl

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One Response to Sunday confession, I gained…

  1. I gained too, but not as much as I would have if I wasn’t trying to stick to lean meat, veggies, and fruits. It’s already coming off. Not bad for the holidays!

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