Just one thing,

Have you ever took a moment and thought about, how lucky you are?. If you are somebody struggling with something say weight, drugs, alcohol, a cheating spouse, no job, I mean and the list can go on. But think about this just for one moment. Bear with me for a minute cuz I know this is probably not what you want to hear if you’re struggling with whatever. Because you’re whatever may mean nothing to somebody but to you it’s the world.

Today you woke up. Today you have a place to live. You have clothes, you have food, or maybe you don’t I don’t know it depends on the situation. But there is always something good and everything.

I left my old job in December and now I have another job that pays less and is less stressful which is a great thing and you know what I didn’t like it for a long time because I felt ashamed of it. Here I am in my early 50s, and just a receptionist. Just a receptionist who answers phones probably 2 to 3 hundred per day, a lot of data entry, a lot of filing on share files, completing credit applications, and now have just started handling customers invoices directly via credit cards / checks / cash. They want to cross train me as a cashier.

Well I’ve been a cashier many many years ago and it’s not my dream job, but it’s a job. I don’t have to walk around far or much, I could park right by the door, the bathroom is 27 steps for me now. I can sit here and list out all the bad but if I list out all the good, the good outweighs the bad.

Like with my weight for example and my bad knees for another example. Yes those are my two main issues with my life right now but I have a wonderful husband who helps and supports me even though he’s a pain in the butt sometimes. I have a home. I have a happy family. I have clothes I have food. So things aren’t as bad as I make it out to be in my head sometimes.

We all got to find that positive thought. So just for today just for right now if you’re reading this, and you’re thinking life sucks or my life sucks or nothing ever going to go right for me. Trust me I’ve been there and in my thoughts. Our thought process holds us to the grindstone. What we think, we actually can start believing if we’re not careful. Trust me I’m speaking from experience. Remember I come out of retirement.

So right now, think about one thing in your life that is good just one. Maybe is you made your car payment or you bought a scratch-off lottery ticket and won $2 or you was able to walk around the block or you wouldn’t got your haircut and you look great, or you put on a pair of pants you haven’t wore in a long time and it fit or you haven’t had a drink and 8 days and you feel proud of yourself. That last one is me. I haven’t had a drink in 8 days. No alcohol hangovers on white zinfandel, no $20 every couple of days for wine.

So there is something good no matter how bad it seems. Maybe you have pretty fingernails that are natural. Maybe you have beautiful blue eyes are beautiful green eyes maybe you have natural blond hair or maybe you’re thin. Hey I would love to have blue eyes and be thin. Do you see what I’m trying to say?

There is something about everybody regardless of who they are, where their life is at this moment where you think it sucks to the farthest shore on Earth. You have something good about you. You have to delve deep inside and find it. You have to become strong.

I am not a powerful person nor am I overly positive. But they but these eight days, since I’ve come out of retirement, have made me realize I can do whatever I set my mind to. And you Can to. I am becoming powerful.

There is no shame in asking for help from a doctor or friend or family member or online and a blog or group chat on Facebook or on community Pages. It is wonderful to have somebody you could talk to. I don’t have a lot of people I open up to because I’m very insecure. I have a couple of people that I talk to who know about my weight issues and some other personal issues. And I’m fine with that as they understand that they also know that I’ll close off real quick when I’m struggling. You have to try.

You have to try. You’re not a failure. I’m not a failure. Some people probably think I’m a failure because I regained my weight so what I gained it. So what …I’ll lose it..

You can do this I swear you can. Whatever you want to do you can do it. YOU want to grow your hair out, stop cutting it and trim the ends so it gets healthy. You want manicured nails save your money and go do it or grow them out long and paint them yourself

I can’t remember what president said this, I think it was Roosevelt, the only thing we have to fear, is fear itself. And I’m scared of everything. I’m scared of embarrassing my family and my friends. I’m scared of people laughing at me. I’m scared of people not liking me because of what I look like. I’m a scaredy-cat all right. There it is I’m putting my life out there for whomever is reading this.

Take a chance, think of one positive thing about yourself right now. No matter how big or how small or how stupid you think it is, because it’s not stupid I promise you. We’ve got to stop looking in the mirror and hating that reflection

Remember what you see in that mirror as soon as you are and what you get. And you know what you’re f****** awesome

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