My first big weekend back on the track and back from (vacation) so to speak.
Yes I was nervous…..would I say screw it and eat whatever OR would I hang in there and do the best I can/could.
Mind you there is not right or wrong…..only better choices
Key to this is no dieting
So how did it go, it went GREAT
I am so proud of myself and you know I never ever say that about me. Usually what I say is I am a fat ass who sucks at life.
I don’t take compliments well either. Most of the time it is about my long fingernails. I just say thank you and smile. I have never been a person who got complimented. Lord knows at work, you never get that type of feedback. So I have never been one to say way to go to myself or thatta girl…but I am darn quick to say you suck and its no wonder this or that and the best one, you are a fat failure.
I admit I am still feeling a bit like a failure. I cannot change anything. NOT a thing. The only thing I can control is now/today and my future. I can only do the best I can. Everyone has challenges and issues that affect them and trust me I am no different. Sometimes I feel I am the only one in the world feeling this way.
I will admit this and it is prob not much, but I felt that my pants were a bit looser. NOT a lot but some. And that made me go OH yeah…..my body has prob been placed in shock.
Where is the chips? Why can’t we snack?
Where is the bread and French fries???
So here I sit, doing better than I did 2 weeks ago. My mindset is strong and I feel like I am doing well except when I look into the mirror (then I see me). But I can change her if I truly want to.
I already started, which is the hard part. I just need to keep on pushing forward.