this is easy…..it was ME that went wrong
my weight loss surgery of choice was the lap band with plication (similar to sleeve). IT WORKS and it worked for me until I decided to give up.
IT was me……NOT my weight loss surgery that went wrong
Here is why I stopped…
I went to Duke to try to get stomach skin surgery and I had all the documentation and I had notes from the skin doctor, my reg doctor, the lap band doctor and then my INS said no.. I was devastated. I truly was.
That is when I said… who cares
SO I am making this public message that my WLS of choice works and helped me lose a lot of weight. It was me that begin to EAT the wrong things (high fat, fast food, snacking yummies and the worse of it….stop exercising)
Yeah, I am ashamed
Yeah, I am a back slider
Yeah, I am a lot of things but I am not a failure.
You can’t/won’t fail IF you try.
What say you?
North Carolina Keto Girl 
You are definitely not a failure! There is no try, there is only do.
Think about this: you never know where the money for skin surgery might come from. Mine came from a change in jobs and stock options that were worth a damn.
The best thing you can do is pick yourself up, dust yourself off and get back on the stick. Make your body the best canvas for whatever future plastic surgeon needs to use his scalpel on. While you are waiting for your $$ to arrive Spanx are your friend.
I understand about giving up. I gave up too. I went on a medication that made me eat and eat and eat. I could have eat eat eaten vegetables and protein but no, I ate absolute crap. Even ice cream which used to make me dump violently (not anymore!) so I have gotten off that medication, but the habit of eating crap is still there so the weight is not coming off.
Don’t beat yourself up about not going to the gym, professional bodybuilders will tell you that its 90% nutrition, 10% exercise that gets them where they are. We have to be on point. I’m actually going to try Optifast to take off this 50lbs I have gained, I start in two weeks. Right before we go on a 6 day cruise, whee.
In any case. You know what to do, you know how to do it. Go to the gym because it feels good. Baby step your way into healthier eating one meal at a time.
You are doing the best you can, for now. For today. You have the willingness to change, that’s the most important thing. Hang onto that. Get on the scale, pull out the tape measure and measure yourself up and down, from neck to calves. A tape measure is even better than the scale, its depressing some days. Pull out your skinniest jeans and hang them up somewhere you will see them every day. I have mine out. Once I start losing weight I’m going to try them on again, an inch at a time. Right now they go to my knees. Who knows, in a month they might go to my thighs etc etc.
You can do it, we believe in you. _I_ believe in you! I knew something was up when you went dark but I’m still here, and so are others, keep writing! I love your writing!
p.s. did you ever get my email?