why…….

I can’t cry it away, I can’t scream it away, I can’t sleep it away, I can’t eat it away, I can’t just can’t! I have to keep on keeping on even if part of me is dying with it each day. Hold my head up, shake that shit off, and smile with tears running down my cheeks, bottom lip quivering, wipe it off and walk away for a minute, turn around and come back, breathe it in and out and try not to be angry. My soul screams inside and my spirit is weeping but my heart is solid and my head is scrambled eggs with thoughts a million times over, what do I do next? what has to be done? How do you do it? It’s not how that matters, it’s why that matters!

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2 Responses to why…….

  1. oldandfit says:

    You’ve been strong to get to this point. There’s no way a bad moment, day, or week can shake you. No retreat, no surrender. You can do this whatever it is!

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