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Portions and being scared

i am admitting that i have been over eating and NOT making the best food choices. that is my own choosing and my own doing. as my friend eye candy reminds me, and what i use to suggest for best results, is to merely do it

do what?

eat
drink
move
and do it daily for best results

i am very scared that i have hurt my lap band by my overeating
jan 5th, i have a dr appt for an xray on my tummy..i am fearing the worst yet hoping i am ok…would serve me right that is for sure..this is weighing heavily on my mind as i feel i have (failed) the lap band as well as myself and also let my hub down…

so today when hub made breakfast this morning, i said please use the small bowl…and he said the smaller portion? i said yes..its not much, but it is something..a start?

i see this small thing as a big thing…i could have very easily said nothing and ate the big ole plate as normal..

so i am going back to i know what works…eating BUT eating my lap band portions..its not about eating this or that as we all know diets dont work..

i had WLS to help me not eat as much
all i have to do is eat (make better choices) and let the band work
and i admit i HAVE NOT been doing that

i can cry, piss, moan about this or that BUT clothes being to tight or too small to wear is a sign that unless i do something about it, i will not be doing what i deserve…

i do not expect to be 120 pounds or a size 2
but i would like right now to get back under 200

so today, i am going to eat…use portions and in the words of my friend, eye candy, get on with it….and dont be a FF again

so, thank you for reading my words..i know lately they have been whiney and feeling sorry for myself and i do apologize for that..

thank YOU for being my friend

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8 thoughts on “Portions and being scared

    • thank you…i always said if i started to blog, i would be honest via good ups and downs..granted the downs are to my own doing this last yr but i really want to get better..and for me to get better, i just have to (do)…every small decision helps and i hope you are right, adding up to better health….thanks for the support my friend

      • It’s called the Compound Effect (great book!)–every little decision truly adds up! If every meal you make a healthy portion decision and ultimately cut even 100 calories a day from your diet–in one year you still lose 10.4 lbs. the opposite is also true–if I eat 100 calories a day more in a year I will gain 10.4lbs. Every little bit adds up! Keep at it ❤️

  1. It’s true… I been doing the same thing for some time now. I keep telling myself I will start the next day, but then it comes and I’m doing the same thing. I’m going to start today and really do it this time. Lol… I hope I can actually stick with it.

    • yes, start and start and start…been there done that for 40+ yrs if i am honest..we all say we start monday..why not now? why not today?? like you, i am just going to do better..i normally would say try to do better but what is try..it needs to be a do..just do better…lets not worry if we ca stick with it as it dont matter….what matter is we just do the best we can right now

      hang in there sweetheart

      • I totally feel you on that. I would always say that also. Then Monday came and past. Then I start hearing those voices telling me to eat that cake and start tomorrow. Then I went through the whole week and not doing what I said I was going to do. It’s very hard at times. So I just don’t plan anything. I get mind together then I take steps. If I fall backwards then I get back up and start over till I get it right. Your mind has to be in the game before it can work. Hang in there. We both will make it… 🙂

  2. Wonderful start to the new CG!
    Last night was my brother’s 75th b. day party. A square dance but because of shoulder surgery, I watched. I ate perfect all day so I could have a piece of b. day cake. My brother bought his favorite, white cake with fresh strawberries and whipped cream. I hate strawberries and whipped cream. I had 1 small taste of the cake. I was pissed but I did lose 1-2 pounds because I ate perfect. Today is another day of not eating home, taking MIL out :(. Dinner was catered by son and his wife, wonderful smoked ribs and grilled salmon. The salmon was outstanding and I brought some home. I want to be able to wear a size 12. I have not had on a 12 in over 45 years and then it was most likely in grade school.
    Have a great Sunday everyone.
    Eye Candy aka BFF

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