i am admitting that i have been over eating and NOT making the best food choices. that is my own choosing and my own doing. as my friend eye candy reminds me, and what i use to suggest for best results, is to merely do it
and do it daily for best results
i am very scared that i have hurt my lap band by my overeating
jan 5th, i have a dr appt for an xray on my tummy..i am fearing the worst yet hoping i am ok…would serve me right that is for sure..this is weighing heavily on my mind as i feel i have (failed) the lap band as well as myself and also let my hub down…
so today when hub made breakfast this morning, i said please use the small bowl…and he said the smaller portion? i said yes..its not much, but it is something..a start?
i see this small thing as a big thing…i could have very easily said nothing and ate the big ole plate as normal..
so i am going back to i know what works…eating BUT eating my lap band portions..its not about eating this or that as we all know diets dont work..
i had WLS to help me not eat as much
all i have to do is eat (make better choices) and let the band work
and i admit i HAVE NOT been doing that
i can cry, piss, moan about this or that BUT clothes being to tight or too small to wear is a sign that unless i do something about it, i will not be doing what i deserve…
i do not expect to be 120 pounds or a size 2
but i would like right now to get back under 200
so today, i am going to eat…use portions and in the words of my friend, eye candy, get on with it….and dont be a FF again
so, thank you for reading my words..i know lately they have been whiney and feeling sorry for myself and i do apologize for that..
thank YOU for being my friend