i took a big step and made me a fill appt for this date.
i am trying to get an fluro before that time to ease my mind
as i can think myself into all sorts of things (conditions) etc….BUT i did it..
not happy about it dammit
BUT to get well, i need to face my demons head on
and the demon i hate most besides myself is ME
i do not want to weigh as i know it is up
my clothes let me know that
i am ashamed
i am embarrassed
i feel like a failure
i had WLS and i even failed that…