we went to see the embers last night at the local park near our house..i had wrote about it before..well, i saw a couple pictures that hub took of me and i was stunned at how old..fat..

why did i let myself become that way?
what have i done?
is hub embarrassed of me?

does the world see me as i see me?
does the world think i am nothing but a lazy fat pig?

but i am who i am
and i am the only one who can change me

we are going riding today to see a couple bands
i am not happy i am going as i dont want people
to laugh at me or feel bad for my hub because he is married to me
or laugh at him because of who he is married to..

i have a feeling its going to be a long day for me…


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14 Responses to old…fat..ugly

  1. Oh my my – Your self-esteem took a big hit! Look in the mirror, into your eyes, touch your cheek, your hair and say from your heart “I love you!”

  2. Julie says:

    We all have days where we feel awful, I try to remember that how the world actually sees me does not reflect the way I see myself. Look after yourself x

  3. Heartafire says:

    I learned some time ago most people are thinking about themselves and not me. Love yourself, be yourself…life is short. ❤

  4. meetmia says:

    I’m sorry for the bad thoughts. I’m sure he loves you and is proud of you. He chose you after all!

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