we went to see the embers last night at the local park near our house..i had wrote about it before..well, i saw a couple pictures that hub took of me and i was stunned at how old..fat..
why did i let myself become that way?
what have i done?
is hub embarrassed of me?
does the world see me as i see me?
does the world think i am nothing but a lazy fat pig?
but i am who i am
and i am the only one who can change me
we are going riding today to see a couple bands
i am not happy i am going as i dont want people
to laugh at me or feel bad for my hub because he is married to me
or laugh at him because of who he is married to..
i have a feeling its going to be a long day for me…