i hate my saggy stomach and saggy upper arms and mountain thighs..but it is who i am..without skin surgery, i will have sag..and as you know, my ins denied me having it and i dont have the $ to get it..and IF i did, i would get/do things for the house as that is way more important.
when i go places, i wonder are people looking at me going look at her? why is she wearing that? doesnt she know you can see her stomach/upper arms?? some people maybe put off looking at me or even disgusted BUT what am i do do? stay home? hide behind the bushes? sure i am embarrassed at how i look but it is who i am and it is what i look like presently. is it wrong to be short and overweight and have excess skin?
yesterday i walked out of the office to go to the bathroom and passed a man and i saw him glance (down) at me as i am super short haha but i saw him look at my stomach..i swear it..why? i know its visible but does that define who i am? my stomach or my upper arms?? does that make not as good as someone thin?
i WISH i was thin
i swear i would love to be 100 pounds for 5 minutes lol
but tonight, we got a bike to ride to
am i going to embarrass my hub? am i going to embarrass my friends due to what i look like?
i try NOT to let anyone think i am anything other than jolly as aint us fat people suppose to be jolly??
i did this to myself
i need to accept it
i realize it and somedays are better than others
but today, i am hating myself…
thanks for listening.