stand in judgement

i feel i judge myself and def compare my self to whomever all day long and on days like today, it has brought me down. i am not feeling well mentally or physically and i feel so very (alone). but it seems the only one judging me is me..why is that?

i try so hard not to judge people as i have no reason too and how dare i..i know who i am and where i come from and what i am about…inside and out…..granted i do judge harshly people who hurt children and animals and i do believe in death penalty and feel it needs to be done quicker *for i feel that would be a sign to not kill anyone or you get killed back*……but when i see a large person, i see myself.

i dont judge them…how can i… how dare i..

i feel for them as i know what its like to hurt or be embarrassed or feel so alone in this big ole stinking world and believe it or not, it does not revolve around kim kardashians ass…

so why must i judge myself so harshly

past dieting failures

waste of $ on food and clothes….

being ashamed? being embarrassed…

i need to forgive MYSELF

i have accepted what i did and tried to make myself better

but forgive myself……will take time

 

 

 

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