right at this very moment….i feel i have the whole world on my shoulders
with on going work stress (argh)
my in laws both ill (and one now with hospice)
the immense drama of it all….
the ONLY thing i can count on is my lap band
NOT letting me eat very much…because i just want to sit
and eat bag and bag of potato chips and say fuck it..
but i cant
how about that
so when i am stressing as i am now and have been
(since my mom died in sept if i am honest) i feel very tight aka full
which is good..i eat when hungry and try to eat protein…some days i do ok
and some days i dont
i am trying hard NOT to let that get to me
all i can do and all you can do and all we can do is the very best
that we can right this moment..
and sometimes that is just going to have to be good enough