i am one of the most negative people you could ever run across…but only about myself…how could my hub of 30 yrs love this fat pig? how could the place i work for want to have someone like me working for them? how this..how that..
i grew up thinking my father did not like me. he did not have much to do with me…did not say much to me or do things with me…and my mom reminded me of joan crawford in some aspects..she did not hit me but her brutal words still haunt me to this day and i an 49 years old.
i wish i could be a more positive person about myself..i mean i know what i look like and who i am as a person and am TERRIFIED of turning into a person who was like my mother..she was so unhappy..so miserable her entire life..i dont think she was ever truly happy..i dont even think she liked me..how sad..my mom died and all i can think/feel is she died hating me..and why i will never know.
and with my own mother seeming to not like me, how can anyone like me? including myself? am i that awful a person? i know i have done/said things i wish i could take back..and have a do over but i cannot..i regret much and i also know somethings won’t be fixed…..but it is something i have to live with day in and day out.
losing weight is eating less calories than you can burn off with exercise
making 90% of the time great food choices is the way to live forever…exercising is amazing and its good for you and its part of life (to move)…and if you can have a positive attitude, then you got it good..
it is what you think
you must think you CAN
its hard on me today as i a trying
i am…and somehow it doesnt seem good enough..